kill integrity

janedoe01 @ 2005-07-02T01:45:00

2005-07-02T05:46:55Z

alright friends, i got a new livejournal account. this one is toast. so long to bad memories, bad friends, and the works.

www.livejournal.com/users/robbiecroosh
comment on the new journal to be added.

thats me. add me if you've enjoyed my livejournal over the last year and a bit.
its gonna be friends only. someone tell me how to make it friends only.

no fat chicks.
no beef curtains.

END OF JOURNAL.

janedoe01 @ 2005-07-02T01:18:00

2005-07-02T05:19:09Z

oh yeah, im getting a new livejournal account.
i think it'll be CBR or crucialbramptonrob, cause im so fucking creative.

janedoe01 @ 2005-07-02T01:15:00

2005-07-02T05:15:40Z

feist is seriously the most beautiful woman alive.
something about the way she sings sets me right off.
oh MAN.

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-28T21:32:00

2005-06-29T01:40:25Z

man fuck my last entry.
im going golfing with paul on saturday, hahahha. waaaaaaaaaps

SEVEN THINGS IN YOUR ROOM:
computer
tv
dvd player
guitar
ipod
skateboard
cell

TOP SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY MOST:
HAHAHHHHHAHAHA
waaaaaaaaaapz
what the fuck
hyyyyyypes
ridiculous
honestly
shut the fuck up

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
ipod
heart
food. thats it

SEVEN THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
i dont fucking know. fuck.

SEVEN OTHER THINGS:
Do You
1.Smoke? sometimes
2.do drugs? yep
3.Read the newspaper? not really
4.drink? yep
5.Have a Job? yep
6. Atttend Church? never
7.Wish on stars? no

Have you ever:
1.Gone skinny dipping? no
2.had surgery? no
3.swam in the dark? yeah
4.Been to a Bonfire? yea
5.Ran away from home? when i was young
6.Played strip poker? no
7.pulled an all nighter? yeah

SEVEN THINGS IN LAST 24 HOURS:
have you...
1.Cried? almost, but then i realized i was being a pussy
2.Sang? no
3.Been kissed? no
4.Felt stupid? no
5.Talked to an ex? in unforunate circumstances
6.Missed someone? yeah
7.had sex with someone? hahahahahahaa

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-28T17:30:00

2005-06-28T21:31:41Z

if this is when and where it ends, last night will be my first real regret.

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-28T00:15:00

2005-06-28T04:20:15Z

oh man i can't believe i just did that.
im in sooooooooooooooooooo much trouble, but i can't help but feel like i did the right thing.

fuck, im not looking forward to several hours of waiting to be mauled to death.
whoosh

but on lighter news

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-26T23:49:00

2005-06-27T04:05:03Z

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. robbie
2. robbiez
3. cbr. sometimes with a Z

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. march of the dead
2. 2 weeks, already fucking annoyed
3. you're fucking weak

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. loyal
2. strong willed
3. honest

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. shy
2. stubborn
3. shy

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. italian
2. greek
3. ASIAN..?

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. black water
2. black dudes with guns
3. beef curtains

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. water
2. oxygen
3. wallet

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. white shirt
2. jamma pants
3. socks!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. laid backness
2. my own life
3. fun

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. smile
2. eyes
3. everything else

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. lie
2. cheat
3. beat women. swish

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. running
2. rocking out
3. promoting is fun too

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. go to bed
2. finish this survey
3. go to bed

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. florida
2. cuba
3. BOURBON ST GRILLE

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. meet dave chapelle
2. play a show in front of 100000000000000 people
3. play the show, then smash the shit out of my guitar

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. i love seeing things get destroyed
2. aggresive at times
3. i like metal

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. i like feist
2. i enjoy romance
3. fuck im going to bed

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-22T18:31:00

2005-06-22T22:32:02Z

alright everyone, it's finished.

cbr presents

THE KILL DECIBEL
CANNONBALL
PROELIIS FERE
BEAUREGARDE

+1 tba

$7

everyone has confirmed.
im overly excited. cant you tell.

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-18T20:57:00

2005-06-19T00:57:34Z

i only got 2 responses from this last time.
fucking do it!

01: what is your first memory of me:
02: how long have we been friends:
03: tell about one memory we share together:
04: describe me in four adjectives:
05: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
06: name one thing you really don't like about me:
07: name one thing you really do like about me:
08: if you could give me a gift what would it be:
09: have we ever gotten in a fight & about what:
10: have we ever hugged:
11: have we ever danced with each other:
12: have you ever seen me cry:
13: have i ever offended you:
14: what is something embarrassing that i've done:
15: what do i usually look like when you see me:
16: what do i say all the time\whats my catch phrase:
17: do you think we will be friends in 5 years:
18: do you think i am bitchy:
19: has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
20: what advice would you give me, in general:
21: are we close friends..if not why?:
22: suggest a band / cd for me to listen to:
23: is there a song that reminds you of me:

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-18T20:37:00

2005-06-19T00:54:56Z

FIRSTS
First best friend: wheeler
First car: never owned one
First break-up: brittney
First screen name: a boozehound named barney
First self purchased album: don't remember
First funeral: great grandfasha
First pets: tiffy the cat.
First big trip: florida
First music you remember hearing in your house: uh..michael jackson? ughguhguhguhgu

LASTS
Last car ride: last night
Last kiss: last night
Last good cry: years
Last movie seen: amityville whore
Last beverage: water
Last food consumed: pizza?
Last crush: me
Last phone call: trish
Last time showered: this morning
Last shoes worn: adidas
Last item bought: computer

RELATIONSHIPS
Who is your very best friend: nate, brittney

FASHION/STUFF
Where is your favorite place to shop: hard to answer
Any tattoos or piercings: ears.

SPECIFICS

Do you do drugs: yes
What kind of shampoo do you use: fructis
What are you listening to right now: nothin
Where do want to get married: i dont care right now
How many buddies are online right now: 34
What would you change about yourself: some stuff

FAVORITES
Color: green
Food: sushi
Boys' names: rory
Girls' names: layla
Subjects in school: english
Sports: hockey
Perfume: none. hate that shit

HAVE YOU EVER
Taken a bath with someone: more like a sexy shower.
Smoked: yes
Made yourself throw up: nope
Skinny dipped: nope
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: not a coward
Pictured a crush naked: picture everyone naked
Actually seen a crush naked: definitely
Cried when someone died: nope
Lied: not in a long time
Fallen for your best friend: once.
Rejected someone: several times
Used someone: nope
Done something you regret: nope

CURRENT
Clothes: shirt, work khakis
Music: nothing, fuck
Make-up: uh
Smell: computer?
Favorite artist: robb of proeliis fere

LAST PERSON

Hugged: trish
You MSNed: trish

ARE YOU
Open Minded: very
Arrogant: can be
Interesting: i guess
Moody: nope
Hardworking: generally, yes
Organized: yes
Healthy: usually
active: yes
Bored: yes
lonely: not really
Responsible: kinda
Angry: sometimes
Sad: moreso recently, dont know why
Disappointed: sometimes
Hyper: not right now
Trusting: depends
Talkative: depends
Legal: yea

WHO DO YOU WANNA
Kill: no one
Slap: no one
Talk to online: dont care

WHICH IS BETTER
Coke or Pepsi: pepsi
Flowers or candy: candy
Tall or short: short
Thick or thin: thin

RANDOM

In the morning I am: fucking whacked out of my skull, sometimes
All I need is: more confidence
What do you notice on a person first: eyes, hair
Last person you danced with: i dunno
Who makes you smile: not a lot
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: dave chapelle
Who do you have crush on: dave chapelle
Who has a crush on you: trish, and dave chapelle

DO YOU EVER

Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: never
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: never
Wish you were young: sometimes i wish

NUMBER
Of times I have had my heart broken: once
Of hearts I have broken: one. im flattering myself
Of guys I've kissed: im not down
Of girls I've kissed: many
Of continents I have lived in on: 1
Of cds I own: ipod, slut

ONE BY ONE YOU'RE NEXT

2005-06-16T04:16:40Z

another show. hopefully i'll be as utterly successful as last time.

crucialbramptonrob presents

THE KILL DECIBEL (tohc heavyweights)
RISE OVER RUN
CANNONBALL
PROELIIS FERE
BEAUREGARDE

+1 possible tba

smash.

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-07T01:18:00

2005-06-07T05:19:27Z

Blame DJ Granny (sdm is a sex machine who treats every mattress like a trampoline) says:
i should start a metal band

Blame DJ Granny (sdm is a sex machine who treats every mattress like a trampoline) says:
like mastodon... but at four times the speed... FASTODON

monotone says:
HAHHAAHAHAHAHAHHHAHA

fuck he's funny

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-06T12:17:00

2005-06-06T16:21:41Z

i have the lodge july 22nd, again. im excited. i talked to jay oyoung about TKD playing. he said he's gonna talk to the guys tonight about them playing. ill be fucking exstatic if they'll play, seriously. Cannonball is 90% too. numbers, revolt! is gonna play too because they need that day for there tour. i won't be playing with them though, the replacement tour guy will be in my spot. that'll be interesting.

if all 3 bands are a go, i'll need 2 more bands to play. i just asked scotty bats for the cancer bats to play, so he's gotta get back to me on that one. if cancer bats say no, then im gonna ask the lava witch. if they say yes, im not asking the lava witch because it'll be too much like farrels show. fuck that.
other than hoping for those 4 bands to be 100%, i don't have anyone..wait, yes i do. Asian Ryans' band.
nevermind.

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-03T23:50:00

2005-06-04T04:01:53Z

hm. i've noticed i've lost a lot of weight over the year.
most of the people i've known for a few years now have increased drastically in body mass.

im pretty sure i have the lodge booked for july 22nd. i just gotta ask shey and kev for some help again, because rocky requests it. so guys if you see this, holla! cannonball is my first band i want. so funny.
so im not going on tour with numbers, revolt! which kinda sucks but..im pretty sure i'll be getting the assistant manager position at my store. i need this.
on another note though, my taste in music is changing, and it's changing fast. im feeling like the stuff me and andy are writing is really really different. he writes the heavier stuff, like the breakdowns and the metal shit, where i write the dancy stuff. it's been that way since i can remember, since i joined, but only recently have i really felt like i want a big change. maybe the time they're on tour will make my head clear.
id definitely like to write with nate in my spare time. something completely different.
something like southern rock n roll, something you can dance to for as long as it's played.

music is all preference, but to bash concepts of music constantly because it's not something you enjoy is quite lame. you don't like it, you don't like it. cool, but it's not something everyone needs to know you don't like, daily.
music can help define who you are, but so can being a band wagon hopping tool.

it's totally cool that people don't dig our music. it's not my place to be offended because people are different from one another. i think of dudes like theo who hate breakdowns, but always comes out to see us. now there's a fucking trooper if i ever knew one.

shit, i gotta go. ill finish this later.

janedoe01 @ 2005-06-02T13:48:00

2005-06-02T17:54:11Z

it always comes down to me wanting to be number one.
nothing less, but only when it comes to you. its selfish, and it causes envy.
shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit

janedoe01 @ 2005-05-31T00:26:00

2005-05-31T04:38:47Z

the show last night was seriously so bad. closed casket funeral got boring really really quick this time around, i guess im not into that kinda shit anymore.
but it got me thinking. we've played shows where the turnout is seriously so bad. but what it comes down to is, it doesn't matter how many kids are there, because im doing something right now im my life that makes me happy. and not alot of people can say that they write music with 4 awesome guys and play tonnes of shows. i've definitely taken it for granted over the past 9 months. i never sat back and thought about how lucky i became when i fell into place with this whole situation.
but i see a lot of people who REALLY take it for granted. several people who think they're rockstars, looking down there noses at other people because they feel like independent music has it's own kind of hiearchy. i meet people, like the singer of the most serene republic. since they've been signed to Arts and Crafts, the guy looks at me, and talks to me like im nobody. i don't have any negative wishful thoughts towards him or anything, but fuck, he's one person who is definitely taking his passion for granted.
it's not about who's been doing this for how long. none of us who are writing music, and playing for small crowds, are legends. everyone i see who has a throbbing ego needs to leave it at the door, because you'll never be positively remembered for being the guy who treated you like shit when you just wanted to tell him how much you enjoyed there set.
im so thankful for out following of fans. guys like Theo, Nate, Phill, and EVERYBODY who comes out to all of our shows (you know who you are, i haven't forgotten any of you) make this as good as it has been.
i whole heartedly appreciate every single time i'm able to just know you guys are there for us.
i'm not about "hardcore politics" or any kind of shit like that, but it's cut and dry. people who have the privelidge of writing music, and being able to be on stage to perform that take it for granted should think twice about there actions towards fans or other bands.
at least when im older, ill be able to think back and say "i worked so hard, and i did something increidble in my teenage years. i met the best people, and i was genuinly happy with what i was doing with myself".

janedoe01 @ 2005-05-29T00:41:00

2005-05-29T04:48:32Z

this years' birthday feels much better than last years' did.
turning 18 meant nothing to me. my life, and things that were happening was not a definition of happiness.

but turning 19 was fucking awesome man. this years birthday was filled with great friends, and good times. i even feel a lot closer with my parents this time around too. thank you to everyone who said happy birthday to me in any form. thank you so much to the people who called me to wish me well.
we played in oshawa tonight. i've never been more exstatic to see dillon and them. the show wasn't great, but i never cease to appreciate being able to be with my closest friends.

tomorrow night in brampton we're playing with strawman.
my 2 best friends'll be there. thank god.

REAPER

2005-05-26T05:37:36Z

tonight was so much fun. me andy and robak went to the space to jam. it was basically me and robak just going over the songs for 4 hours. and on that note, i bought a new guitar. i ended up spening about 900 on it. fuck! but it rips, its so sweet.
anyways, after practice, me andy and robak went to burger king and FUCKED that place up. so mean. but it was too funny. i didn't get my free apple pie so we whipped coke and ketchup at the windows. fuck you queensway burger queers.

after that i took robak home. we reminised of that time we went to burger king and fucked it up.
after that, i went over to brittneys house and we chilled for the first time in fucking forever. it was so sweet. we're both just as retarded as i once remembered. we watched tv, and we saw this one show called REAPER, and we both died for some reason. she even painted it on a dinosaur. fuck that paintings good. then we went for a drive and threw eggs and pears at shit. not only that, we listened to this song called "NO SEX TILL YOU'RE MARRIED" on the radio. it was just a techno beat being played over girls moaning. best song ever.
such a relieving night. i forgot what it was like to laugh as much as i did with some sweet sweet people.

janedoe01 @ 2005-05-20T16:37:00

2005-05-20T20:37:32Z

its like licking an ashtray!

janedoe01 @ 2005-05-17T00:31:00

2005-05-17T04:35:54Z

im talking to abuddy from highschool for the first time in a year
all in all, things are completely different.

i dont think any relationship i had in highschool has an effect on who i am right now.
i guess i've just grown out of everyone i've ever known back then.

kinda sad. but, at the same time, life is good now, despite a few things which will be overcome.

its all about living life with a positive open mind.

MARE

2005-05-08T04:44:05Z

we played with mare and daughters tonight. and also aidswolf.
we ripped so hard tonight. the most perfect set we've ever played, and the sound was so crisp. too bad the stage was too small. i hit joey several times with my crucial swings. and i jumped right into a mirror, and tripped on a few monitors. good sound though!
so, jose left our band to pursue other things. i hope to god that we decide that nate will be our new drummer. im sure he will be though, he's out best candidate. and i know he'd love to. WE'D BE SO MUCH BETTER.

anyways, fill this shit out. these things are fun.

01: what is your first memory of me:
02: how long have we been friends:
03: tell about one memory we share together:
04: describe me in four adjectives:
05: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
06: name one thing you really don't like about me:
07: name one thing you really do like about me:
08: if you could give me a gift what would it be:
09: have we ever gotten in a fight & about what:
10: have we ever hugged:
11: have we ever danced with each other:
12: have you ever seen me cry:
13: have i ever offended you:
14: what is something embarrassing that i've done:
15: what do i usually look like when you see me:
16: what do i say all the time\whats my catch phrase:
17: do you think we will be friends in 5 years:
18: do you think i am bitchy:
19: has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
20: what advice would you give me, in general:
21: are we close friends..if not why?:
22: suggest a band / cd for me to listen to:
23: is there a song that reminds you of me:

i stole it from josh. eat it.

janedoe01 @ 2005-05-05T22:05:00

2005-05-06T02:06:48Z

its official!

janedoe01 @ 2005-05-02T18:38:00

2005-05-02T22:47:09Z

this weekends events were not as grand as i thought they'd be. our show sucked huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge. i couldn't even believe it. brittneys party was okay, im glad nate came, and jess too.
jess and i came back to my house for a bit, then i dropped her off (unfortunately) at ruths house.
oh yeah, i saw ruth for the first time in a while. she's so awesome.
after i went to drop her off, i went back to brittneys, again. i enjoyed myself much more the second time around because i ripped the black dahlia murder on her classical guitar. thats right, metal can be played anywhere! i wanted to meet eric, but im not good at greeting myself. so, its left for later days.
i also bought another one of brittneys paintings. i now have 3. this one is of a guy holding a microphone. i remember seeing it soooo long ago. thanks!

and today i watched star wars: the empire strikes back. so sweet.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITTNEY TOWNSLUT.

i have a headache.
oh, and i loved how i got to see theo so much this weekend.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY THEO KAPODISTRIAS.
it was odd how much i saw him. too bad he couldn't stay longer. i love that young man.

okay now im really going.

i hope you're still able to come back may 24.

janedoe01 @ 2005-04-29T01:42:00

2005-04-29T05:58:00Z

i picked up jess from the airport tonight. the only good thing that to happen today.
greeted by a hug, kiss, and an "i missed you so much" hasn't been felt or heard in so long.

lucky

!!!!!!!!!1

2005-04-27T02:20:24Z

WOW. today at work, i caught 2 guys with a fake credit card. i got them busted by the cops. turns out, they had 5 different fake credit cards. i feel like such a cop. im amazing at the least.

so this weekend looks hella bright.
jess comes home on thursday, and friday we're playing a split set at the lodge, with the lava witch, where brittney will have a table set up for art (requested by me, simply because im selfish and i want art).
and then saturday is brittneys partay. i hope i can pull of the "gift" and not look like a complete douche. oh hey, if you're reading this, the gift isn't the "instrument". you'll see.

anywho, ive finally got a day off tomrrow. i hope those guys dont come to my house and fuck my shit up.
instead, me and nate are going around to different price choppers and stealing boxes for our moshbots on friday. SWEET.